Is it bad to want to die?

I believe so...
I want to die. I do. I don't have much of a reason sadly, except that, I'm really just sick of this life.
Sick of being depressed all the time.
Sick of wanting to get high all the time, rather than face life.
Sick of waiting for something good to happen, when I know, it won't.
Sick of wanting something I'll never ever get. Something thats pretty much unimaginable.
Sick of wanting acceptance, and love, and a stationary home. I want one home. Not two split houses.
I really hate that. I hate it more than anything. I want a house not an 2 family, or duplex. A house.
I want a mom, and dad, together. Though I know that will never ever happen. I don't want a stepfather, and I have one. Most people would say, "You should be grateful to have 3 loving 'parents,' most people dont even have a dad or a mom." Well fuck that, because I want two parents. That are together. That live in a house, with green grass, a picket fence, and jungly gym&swing set, a dog. Yeah, I have two dogs, and I love them both, but that's what i dream for. I want a mom, that actually cares about me more than herself. Cares more about what I feel, and need, and want, then what she thinks is right or wrong.
See the thing about my mom is, shes self centered, and stubborn. Once she believes something, you'll never get it out of her head. She's a cold hearted bitch. She pretends to care, so that others will think she does, because thats all she really cares about. Herself, and her self image. I'm pretty positive she's embarassed of me. She searches through my shit, and so does my step dad. They the biggest creeps and lurks. I have to bullshit my way through this house, until i move out. Or atleast until i move into my daddys.
Now my dad, I love him, I truly love my father. He's my favourite person in the world, and no matter what he always will be. I feel comfortable around him. He does have the worst and shortest temper, and sometimes her scares the shit out of me. I have a slight feeling everytime he blows up, that he might take the next step, and that would be a step too far. :/
But I promise myself, that once I get married, I'm never getting a divorce, no matter what. I know that you can work through every problem if you try hard enough, and I dont want to be like my parents. I don't want a failed marriage. I don't want to rip apart my kids lives. I don't ever want to do that. You dont know how serious I am.
So fuck all of this.
Life sucks, then you die, so fuck the world, and let's get high.
That's what i want to do right now. Fuck this.
I want to die. I do. I want to just sleep for eternity. I want a new life. I want to be reincarnated. I want to be happy. Thats really the only thing i want to be happy. Is that really so much to ask for?